Posted on 3:14 PM | By KatieSham | In
I don't deal with change very well.
As much as I would like to be able to say that I'm a 'Go with the flow' type of person, I'm just not. If I'm going to hang out with more than two people at a time I need a very thorough plan. I kind of thought that having switched schools an ungodly number of times made me somewhat used to change. Not so much.
I enjoy schedules; I like know what I'm getting myself into. Time, and time again I've been faced with change of some sort and I've kept telling myself that no one really does that well with change. But...that's just not true. I'm just really terrible being thrown into something I'm not used to.
But I think it's good. I definitely think this is God reminding me that ultimately, He's in control. He has a plan for my life and I need to just let him have it all.
And really, that's what matters. Even when things are happening at a crazy fast speed that I'm not OK with I know that God here. I don't have to know exactly what's going on because He does, and His plan is so infinitely better than anything I could ever come up with.
I went back and read the note I wrote at the beginning of 2009, about 2008. It made me realize that even though I still struggle with change around me, I've changed myself. I no longer bite my nails. And I really, honestly enjoy Coldplay.
Even though I'm unsure of what's ahead and where on EARTH my life is going, God's in control. God's got a plan. And He's here. Unchanging.
As much as I would like to be able to say that I'm a 'Go with the flow' type of person, I'm just not. If I'm going to hang out with more than two people at a time I need a very thorough plan. I kind of thought that having switched schools an ungodly number of times made me somewhat used to change. Not so much.
I enjoy schedules; I like know what I'm getting myself into. Time, and time again I've been faced with change of some sort and I've kept telling myself that no one really does that well with change. But...that's just not true. I'm just really terrible being thrown into something I'm not used to.
But I think it's good. I definitely think this is God reminding me that ultimately, He's in control. He has a plan for my life and I need to just let him have it all.
And really, that's what matters. Even when things are happening at a crazy fast speed that I'm not OK with I know that God here. I don't have to know exactly what's going on because He does, and His plan is so infinitely better than anything I could ever come up with.
I went back and read the note I wrote at the beginning of 2009, about 2008. It made me realize that even though I still struggle with change around me, I've changed myself. I no longer bite my nails. And I really, honestly enjoy Coldplay.
Even though I'm unsure of what's ahead and where on EARTH my life is going, God's in control. God's got a plan. And He's here. Unchanging.
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