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Today is a BEAUTIFUL day. I keep standing in the doorway. AH, I love this weather.

Went to lunch with Elizabeth today to work on the yearbook cover. It was good times. We went to Little Azio's. They have these huge garage door windows and they were open and it was BEAUTIFUL. Ah, so nice.

This past weekend was so weird. Something just felt off. It wasn't a BAD thing, just..weird.

Yesterday was FULL of weirdness. I talked to people I haven't really spoken to in forever. It was good. Very weird, but very nice. It made me realize how grateful I am to have a ton of people in my life that really care about me. Regardless of how often we talk, they'll always be there for me. And, it kind of hit me how much I WILL actually miss them all next year.

I shall now go take an insanely long shower, get more green tea, and then ENJOY the outside.

I would REALLY love it if Christmas would hurry up. I love the whole wintery season. Cold weather, Christmas trees, and baking. AND SO MUCH MORE.

I just -AH- I love it. I love putting up the tree; I love cooking yummy things. AND I CAN WEAR MY SCARVES. I have a strong love and respect for scarves. I got a beauuuutiful one for my birthday. And I can't WAIT to wear it.

But I'm getting ahead of myself. Fall still needs to really kick in. Which, is still fine with me. I love fall just as much as winter. Leaves, college football, and LAYERS. Woo. I'm pumped.


Today was a nice one for the most part. It was a little hectic to begin with. But after finishing my physics test (we'll see how that goes), things were pretty smooth.

Chorus was good, not too many people, but a good group nonetheless. That's what got me really in the whole Christmasy mood. We're practicing all of our songs for Christmas. And I love them all. We're singing the Charlie Brown Christmas song. Christmas timeeee is hereeeee. I adore that song. It's so cute.

So that is all, I must go do homework and eat and things.

Because The Office comes on tonight! I know you've all been waiting.

So, hello blog. I've decided something. I've decided that I'm going to be completely honest with you. I'm going to try my hardest to just write what I feel. I'm going to try my VERY hardest to pretend as though no one is reading you.

That will be hard. But I'm going to try. I will also try to do it more frequently. The posts won't always be funny (not that they ever are...) and they certainly won't always be entertaining. But since I'm AWFUL at keeping any kind of journal, I'd like to have something to look back at in a couple years.

SO HERE WE GO.

Today was good. Went to Starbucks this morning. That was a good time. I haven't been in a while, and I always appreciate some good coffee. We of course get stalked by another creepy fellow. Because that ALWAYS happens. We decided to move outside because I, of course, had picked a spot in direct sunlight. And guess what, CREEPY MAN came out with us! It was good times. We always get creeped on at Starbucks.

Other than that, today was mostly relaxing. No school, Taco Bell for dinner, laughing...today was a good day.

It's days like today that make me forget about all of the college stuff I can't stop thinking about (which I should probably blog about if I'm really going for this whole honestly thing).

So yes, that's pretty much it. Pretty uneventful day. Tomorrow doesn't look too much more exciting. Lots of quality time with Frankenstein and my physics book. Woo!

It's eating me. I need a break. I'm so tired of people and trying to please everyone, keep everyone happy. I'm tired of trying and not feeling like people need me like I need them. BLAH.

On a slightly happier note I went to GCSU on Monday with Morgan, Mrs. Diana, and my mom. That was a good time. We laughed a lot and had a great time. But it wasn't really..for me I don't think. It was a nice campus and all, good programs, nice people. Just not for me.

Yesterday I went to a yearbook conference in Chattanooga. And again, very nice. We had a good time. But it was just a long time to be in the car for one day.

Now, I'm working on my government paper and praying for the weekend to be here as soon as possible. Woo.

I'm feelin' ZIPPY tonight.

So this weekend is my birthday. And I'm not so excited. I mean, I suppose I'm excited for the actual BIRTHDAY but I'm not exactly excited for the eight hour drive to the mountains.

BUT ANYWAY.

On Sunday, I was feeling a little down. Mostly because I didn't get out of the house because I was feeling a little under the weather and when I DON'T get out of the house, things aren't pretty. I was convinced that my stay at home Monday wouldn't be any better.

BUT THEN, I won tickets. Tickets to see one of my FAVORITE bands play. The Fray. :D
I was happy. And, it's a small event, only 200 attendees. AH. Intense.
It's just funny to me how I can be so down one second and then BAM! God's like, "Hey, hey look. Stop complaining, things are good. Here, let me prove it to you." And then things like that happen.

And really, this was definitely a God thing. Because the chances of me being able to win ANYTHING on the radio are about as great as everyone sprouting a tail and breathing under water. Really, same odds.

So yes, I'm very excited by that. Was definitely a good start to my week.

Now, I shall go read Frankenstein and go to sleep.

See you all tomorrow perhaps?

FINALLY!

I'm so happy to finally be able to say that. I can't even express to you how happy that makes me. Not...because it means I'm the oldest or anything, just because it means I'm so close to being done with high school. So many people try to tell me that high school is "the best four years of your life," but if THESE are my best years, I'm not really looking forward to the rest of it..

Don't get me wrong, I've had some fantastic times. I mean, I wouldn't trade this past summer for anything in the world, but aside from the summers and the other few good times, I really haven't liked it that much. I really, honestly, hate school. And don't get me wrong, I love learning. I LOVE finding out new things. But I just really hate learning about things that I don't care about..at all. I know everyone has to learn all of it, but that doesn't really make it any easier.

So I'm glad to finally be nearing the end of it all. And I'm excited for what God has in store for me up ahead.

But as for right now..I'm good with where I am. I love the people that are close to me, and that's all that really matters. :)

Today was a FANTASTIC day. I don't know why, but it was.
I got to school on time, which is..always a nice way to start things off. School went by pretty..uneventfully. Well, and I got Starbucks somewhere in there.. And THAT is always a welcomed part of any day.

After, I went and got a skirt for school and a sweet tea from McDonalds. I'm pretty sure the world could be ending, a meteor speeding towards my head, and if I had a sweet tea, I'd be able to deal.

Then, we went home and my mom painted my nails. :D I'm pretty self-sufficient, but this is one talent I have yet to master. And whenever I try, it always ends...horribly, with fingernail polish somewhere I did not intend for it to be.

And after that I headed to the movies, met Amanda, and we saw Julie & Julia. It was ADORABLE. I, for some reason, did not have very high expectations for it, but it was so cute. It made me laugh and smile and just put me in a good mood. AND it ended great. (Happy, but not perfect.)

AND THEN..Amanda and I got to jump her car off of mine (Is that even how you phrase that?). That was a good time..haha
I'm glad I can at least say I've done it now. AND IT WORKED..SO THAT WAS GOOD TIMES.

And on the way home I had the windows down (AND IT WASN'T MISERABLY HOT! It was warm..but bearable.) and the music loud and that's just a perfect ending to any day. :)

Today was good, I think tomorrow will be good. This WEEK will be good. I'm being positive. That's the only way I'll make it through this year without strangling someone.

HAPPY TIMES!
Off to watch Big Brother. :)

Uncle Kracker-Smile

is teaching me things. SCARY.
I was looking back at something I wrote on the night before the last day of 9th grade, and it made me smile. I was much more self-actualized then. That's a little pitiful.

Anyway, I edited it, added to it, and took away some things. But, for the most part, it all still holds true. A lot of it still sounds like the 9th grade me, but that's ok. I'm going to post it, even though no one appears to be reading any longer, I SHALL POST.

LIFE.

It's not always great.
It hardly ever goes like we planned and usually even less like we wanted it to. Things go wrong and things are messed up, people make mistakes, and say the wrong things.
But we have to learn to forgive. Because before we know it, the time has passed and our chance is gone. And there's no taking that moment back, no rewind or re-do button.
We have to learn to not regret anything we say or do. Because in the moment we said or did the wrong thing, we did exactly what we truly wanted to do.
We have to learn that people grow apart, not every one of our best friends will really stay our best friend. People change, grow apart, and make new friends.
We have to learn that change is the thing that shapes us, makes us who we are. Change tests us and pushes us to our limits. It tells us who we really, truly are.
We have to learn that our family really is the one thing that we can always count on. We can mess up, scream, and yell and they will still be there, ready to stand up for us even when we made the wrong choice.
We have to learn that sometimes, it's our friends that act more like family. Sometimes it's our friends who we can really count on to always be there when our families are unbearable.
We have to learn that at some point, we're going to have our hearts broken. And chances are, at least once, it’ll get broken by the one person we thought we could really trust. It’ll be the one person we swore we were in love with.
We have to learn that people don't always mean to hurt us. Sometimes it's simply that they've changed. And other times they realize that they didn't really love us, like we loved them. They know it's better to end it before it hurts any more than it has to.
We have to learn that some of the time, we have to believe in ourselves in order to get by. Sometimes no one, not even our closest friends and family will stand behind us. There will come a time when no one can understand why we’re struggling, and we’ll have to be the ones to pick ourselves up.
We have to learn to move on. We can’t experience new things until we’ve accepted the old.
We have to learn that we won’t always get along and agree with our best friends. They say that fighting can make a relationship stronger. No two people are exactly the same, no two people agree on everything.
We have to learn that we will get hurt. Our family will hurt us, our friends will hurt us, and the one person who said they’d never hurt us. But that’s ok, because if we move on, it can make us stronger.
And at some point, we have to accept that life's not perfect. But if we try our hardest to make it the best we can, if we forgive those that love us, if we’re as honest as we can be, and if we love as best we know how, it can come about as close as it gets.