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I'm going to keep at this blogging thing. Regardless of the fact that no one is reading it. I've given up on making it mildly entertaining. But in five years I want to be able to look back and cry from laughter at how much I've changed.

So in Fuel on Sundays at church we've broken up into little prayer groups. We all get together for like 5 minutes at the beginning of each lesson and write down each others prayer requests. I kind of dreaded it a little at first. Only because of how well we all haven't gotten along in the past year or so. It's actually really nice though; kind of reminds us why we all liked each other in the first place.

But I've kind of noticed a running theme in all of our requests each week. College.
It scares me to death.

I've known our entire small group for at least five years, most of them longer than that. The idea of everyone going off to school is so weird. I've known several of these people longer than I've known how to tie my shoes, longer than I've been able to form a compound sentence. It's so bizarre.

And obviously this extends past the people I know at church. College is being talked about everrrywhere.

There are definitely people that I think will be fine, that will adjust well. But there are a few that I'm almost certain will be knocking on mom and dad's door, not knowing how to boil water, within thee first two weeks of being away.

There are a few people I won't be sad to not see as regularly (or..never again..). But there are ALSO a few I hate the idea of losing touch with. I'm a pretty dependent person. I am. Not in the sense that I need someone constantly being with me, or always hanging out with fifteen different people. But I rely on my close friends to keep my spirits up. When I'm down, I talk to people. When I'm frustrated, I talk to people. When I'm happy, I talk to people. And yes, I will meet new people at school. But I know that there are certain friendships that probably won't last if we're not seeing each other once a week. And I hate that.

I like the people that I'm close with now. Yes, I so badly want to meet new people; to experience new things. But I don't want to lose that small circle of people that I love. People keep telling me that if they really matter they won't go anywhere. But I know that's crap. I've transferred schools enough times to know that sometimes, no matter how much you give it, there are just some relationships that don't work when you're not around someone.


Meh, anyway. Today I got in my first..wreck? Collision? Hah, I don't know.

I'm rounding a turn in my stupidly curvy neighborhood and the short bus appears and is in the MIDDLE OF THE STREET. I'm not talking like, was a little on my side of the street; where I can just kind of skirt into the little lip/curb thing. I mean like, if I didn't move I was going to be run over. So, I got over. A mailbox just happened to be inhabiting the same piece of earth I wanted. BEST PART? The bus kept driving. So, my mirror and car ended their relationship. I was crying, people were waving at me as I left the neighborhood looking like someone just died. It was a great afternoon.

Now, I shall go lay down and catch up on TV I've missed this week because I was being a good senior, doing her homework.

Oh, one more thing. I was thinking today, while taking mindless government notes, that I've had well over five gallons of green tea in the past two months. I can't decide if that's healthy or not.

Today is a BEAUTIFUL day. I keep standing in the doorway. AH, I love this weather.

Went to lunch with Elizabeth today to work on the yearbook cover. It was good times. We went to Little Azio's. They have these huge garage door windows and they were open and it was BEAUTIFUL. Ah, so nice.

This past weekend was so weird. Something just felt off. It wasn't a BAD thing, just..weird.

Yesterday was FULL of weirdness. I talked to people I haven't really spoken to in forever. It was good. Very weird, but very nice. It made me realize how grateful I am to have a ton of people in my life that really care about me. Regardless of how often we talk, they'll always be there for me. And, it kind of hit me how much I WILL actually miss them all next year.

I shall now go take an insanely long shower, get more green tea, and then ENJOY the outside.

I would REALLY love it if Christmas would hurry up. I love the whole wintery season. Cold weather, Christmas trees, and baking. AND SO MUCH MORE.

I just -AH- I love it. I love putting up the tree; I love cooking yummy things. AND I CAN WEAR MY SCARVES. I have a strong love and respect for scarves. I got a beauuuutiful one for my birthday. And I can't WAIT to wear it.

But I'm getting ahead of myself. Fall still needs to really kick in. Which, is still fine with me. I love fall just as much as winter. Leaves, college football, and LAYERS. Woo. I'm pumped.


Today was a nice one for the most part. It was a little hectic to begin with. But after finishing my physics test (we'll see how that goes), things were pretty smooth.

Chorus was good, not too many people, but a good group nonetheless. That's what got me really in the whole Christmasy mood. We're practicing all of our songs for Christmas. And I love them all. We're singing the Charlie Brown Christmas song. Christmas timeeee is hereeeee. I adore that song. It's so cute.

So that is all, I must go do homework and eat and things.

Because The Office comes on tonight! I know you've all been waiting.

So, hello blog. I've decided something. I've decided that I'm going to be completely honest with you. I'm going to try my hardest to just write what I feel. I'm going to try my VERY hardest to pretend as though no one is reading you.

That will be hard. But I'm going to try. I will also try to do it more frequently. The posts won't always be funny (not that they ever are...) and they certainly won't always be entertaining. But since I'm AWFUL at keeping any kind of journal, I'd like to have something to look back at in a couple years.

SO HERE WE GO.

Today was good. Went to Starbucks this morning. That was a good time. I haven't been in a while, and I always appreciate some good coffee. We of course get stalked by another creepy fellow. Because that ALWAYS happens. We decided to move outside because I, of course, had picked a spot in direct sunlight. And guess what, CREEPY MAN came out with us! It was good times. We always get creeped on at Starbucks.

Other than that, today was mostly relaxing. No school, Taco Bell for dinner, laughing...today was a good day.

It's days like today that make me forget about all of the college stuff I can't stop thinking about (which I should probably blog about if I'm really going for this whole honestly thing).

So yes, that's pretty much it. Pretty uneventful day. Tomorrow doesn't look too much more exciting. Lots of quality time with Frankenstein and my physics book. Woo!

It's eating me. I need a break. I'm so tired of people and trying to please everyone, keep everyone happy. I'm tired of trying and not feeling like people need me like I need them. BLAH.

On a slightly happier note I went to GCSU on Monday with Morgan, Mrs. Diana, and my mom. That was a good time. We laughed a lot and had a great time. But it wasn't really..for me I don't think. It was a nice campus and all, good programs, nice people. Just not for me.

Yesterday I went to a yearbook conference in Chattanooga. And again, very nice. We had a good time. But it was just a long time to be in the car for one day.

Now, I'm working on my government paper and praying for the weekend to be here as soon as possible. Woo.

I'm feelin' ZIPPY tonight.

So this weekend is my birthday. And I'm not so excited. I mean, I suppose I'm excited for the actual BIRTHDAY but I'm not exactly excited for the eight hour drive to the mountains.

BUT ANYWAY.

On Sunday, I was feeling a little down. Mostly because I didn't get out of the house because I was feeling a little under the weather and when I DON'T get out of the house, things aren't pretty. I was convinced that my stay at home Monday wouldn't be any better.

BUT THEN, I won tickets. Tickets to see one of my FAVORITE bands play. The Fray. :D
I was happy. And, it's a small event, only 200 attendees. AH. Intense.
It's just funny to me how I can be so down one second and then BAM! God's like, "Hey, hey look. Stop complaining, things are good. Here, let me prove it to you." And then things like that happen.

And really, this was definitely a God thing. Because the chances of me being able to win ANYTHING on the radio are about as great as everyone sprouting a tail and breathing under water. Really, same odds.

So yes, I'm very excited by that. Was definitely a good start to my week.

Now, I shall go read Frankenstein and go to sleep.

See you all tomorrow perhaps?

FINALLY!

I'm so happy to finally be able to say that. I can't even express to you how happy that makes me. Not...because it means I'm the oldest or anything, just because it means I'm so close to being done with high school. So many people try to tell me that high school is "the best four years of your life," but if THESE are my best years, I'm not really looking forward to the rest of it..

Don't get me wrong, I've had some fantastic times. I mean, I wouldn't trade this past summer for anything in the world, but aside from the summers and the other few good times, I really haven't liked it that much. I really, honestly, hate school. And don't get me wrong, I love learning. I LOVE finding out new things. But I just really hate learning about things that I don't care about..at all. I know everyone has to learn all of it, but that doesn't really make it any easier.

So I'm glad to finally be nearing the end of it all. And I'm excited for what God has in store for me up ahead.

But as for right now..I'm good with where I am. I love the people that are close to me, and that's all that really matters. :)

Today was a FANTASTIC day. I don't know why, but it was.
I got to school on time, which is..always a nice way to start things off. School went by pretty..uneventfully. Well, and I got Starbucks somewhere in there.. And THAT is always a welcomed part of any day.

After, I went and got a skirt for school and a sweet tea from McDonalds. I'm pretty sure the world could be ending, a meteor speeding towards my head, and if I had a sweet tea, I'd be able to deal.

Then, we went home and my mom painted my nails. :D I'm pretty self-sufficient, but this is one talent I have yet to master. And whenever I try, it always ends...horribly, with fingernail polish somewhere I did not intend for it to be.

And after that I headed to the movies, met Amanda, and we saw Julie & Julia. It was ADORABLE. I, for some reason, did not have very high expectations for it, but it was so cute. It made me laugh and smile and just put me in a good mood. AND it ended great. (Happy, but not perfect.)

AND THEN..Amanda and I got to jump her car off of mine (Is that even how you phrase that?). That was a good time..haha
I'm glad I can at least say I've done it now. AND IT WORKED..SO THAT WAS GOOD TIMES.

And on the way home I had the windows down (AND IT WASN'T MISERABLY HOT! It was warm..but bearable.) and the music loud and that's just a perfect ending to any day. :)

Today was good, I think tomorrow will be good. This WEEK will be good. I'm being positive. That's the only way I'll make it through this year without strangling someone.

HAPPY TIMES!
Off to watch Big Brother. :)

Uncle Kracker-Smile